now is 1.45am le
was doing my lit
think alot this few days
post it here before i forgotten

as regard of wat i post yesterday
it make alot of people moody
but dont know why not really guilty
but i feel relieve
im bad
yes i am
i dont care wat u think
but wat i say is true
maybe others will think i evil
or i siao le
suddenly say so much
and hurt others so much
but i dont care
its me
yupps
is me

regarding xinyi
we left u out???
but maybe u should think y did we do tat?
do u remember
tat time change of places
y i choose jingting but not u
because u were high class
just dont know why u seem to be very high
where i cant reach
i never even think tat u want to sit with me
until u say so
u were too high for me
u are the monitress
u have a good relationship with everyone
u make friends fast
u can make friend everywhere
everytime
every moment
but i cant
u know how to sweet talk
friends, teachers, parents
can be friends with u
i very bless
is true from my heart
i swear
is from my heart
those day with u
is really bless
i never think of it before
can be mention by u
i m yr friend
or even close friend
is my dream
those day my dream come true

but sometime
u should know to
u will left ppl out
do u remember when we are playing volleyball
u left me out!!!
u were with jingni they all
i being left out!!!
not even a word to me tat afternoon
we are same
we hate being left out...

as for kengteng
i dont know y u are moody
i remember those day
we not close at all
u hate me
i hate u
but now we are friends again
to me
be friend with u are bless
u were such a popular girl in class
u were good in yr studies
especially english
i so admire
but now u change
yes
change is not wrong
part of growing up
i dotn really mind if
u dont wish to change
or
u cant change
i dont ming
as long as we are friends

sometimes u cant change
but
sometimes u change too fast
u change too fast tat i will feel scared
maybe u dont know
but i can see and sense
u change friends too fast
so fast...
i m scared
i lose u so many time
regardless of crystal, miaoyun, ranjetha, huimin or xinyi
u change so fast
do u remember
those day u say miaoyun is yr bestie?
then crystal?
ranjetha?
huimin?
then xinyi?
do u remember?
start if the year we are so close
then change
we hate each other
then we are friends again
then hate
then become friends again?
so fast

maybe i dont say this duing days
but i m thinking of it every moment
every second
i scare to be left out
i scare someone will snatch away me bestie
i scare u guys will talk bad behind me

i scare to walk home alone;
i scare to stay at mac alone;
i scare to drink bubble tea alone;
i scare to online alone
i scare to go recess alone
wateva
I SCARE TO BE ALONE

now is 2.14 am
left with fear