Alright, i should no study today and vomit my thoughts here. Prelim 2 had just over, well well, its totally out of what i expect. I shall spent all my time in Chemistry and Amaths, I see hope in you guys.

Many things happen this month, and the most important one coming is my Birthday! I'm really excited. I'm going to spend with the two most important person in my life on the first of oct. Perhaps somebody who are reading my blog will laugh at me, "What a boring birthday.." Haha, its alright. I am not trying to be sour grape or forcing myself to be optimistic. But i am really happy enough. Thankyou.

Last Saturday, i went to kbox and east coast. I am not trying to bragged here, if i really want to brag, i dont think blogspot will be enough for me. Perhaps you might think that in this post, I am always trying to accommodate people. The reason why i do is because people around me always think that i am too self-centred.They think that i should always think of how others feel. Yes, I'm trying now, but sorry.. only in this post. I still want to live like who i want. You like me you come, don't like me please go. During the long cycling ride, I was enduring with my muscle cramp and looking out for those mischievous kids popping out from nowhere but throughout i was also thinking. Thinking what have i done wrong these days. What have i not been doing for people around me. The answer i get is sadly, I still can't think of any. Haha, i am self-centered right? After so many incident, ok i will be specific, after many friendship problem. I still didn't change. I just want to say i really want to live like who i want. When i was borned(er, i dont know what is the past tense of born), i was not given many things. So i want my future to be in my own hand. For example, many people told me i should study hard and aim for ngee an, but to my own thinking, i want to sleep late till late morning, i just want to get in to nanyang. 

I know what people are talking behind my back, I'm sorry but your group wasn't as popular like how your group think of me. Erm, you know what i mean? Glad if you. I tried my best to explain my part, however i truly think that i had explained to the wrong person. Well, what past has passed. Things are getting worst, those people who i explained to had explain the wrong thing to the others, or perhaps adding the wrong things to explain. I don't blame you. I understand that character of yours which cannot be help, maybe its your past life or something like in-born ability?  But trust me, that ability of yours will not bring you far. Life is fair, you have "that" ability means you will not have another, erm something like being pretty? Being sociable with guys? Note: I didn't state what type of ability i have at all, before. Please don't put words in my mouth anymore.

Friends to me ain't important. But not useless. I always agree with my mama words. Friend always used one another. Of course there are bad and good. If you "used" your friend right. You can be real happy, erm? Like getting to know the hottest gossip? Or give advice on how to get closer to each other crush. If you are using your friend wrongly, "Your friend will criticize your crush, telling you its impossible between you guys?" Or "laugh at each other stupidity". Its obvious that I'm stating the opposite right? We always use each other to be able to live, its call inter-dependent. But please use it carefully and correctly. Hope you know :)

Haha, if anyone of you are reading this post, i don't guarantee that you will understand what I'm saying. Perhaps, you might pick up one or two sentence in the whole post to make it real big, ok i will thank you because you will make my blog to have more readers. Or thinking that how am i suppose to take my English o evel. Since sec 1, i have this problem with my English is the expression. In the outside form, it means that my English is not up to the standard to express my thoughts and feeling. In the inside, it means i have the character of not be able to explain myself properly or up to the standard that people will want to recognize. I can be frank, i want to say sorry to my mama, the number of time i say "mama, i love you" Or "mama, you are the best mama in the world" are less than ten fingers. The number of time i say "I love you, my rabbit" to my rabbit were less than five fingers. So please understand if you are around me. Firstly, my English is not good and secondly, i don't express myself like how people think i will.

After ten years of education, i can be truthful that the number of friends i have in primary school which i still contact is only two. Secondary school? Perhaps one or two again. Friends? HAHAHAHA

I am really contented of how i'm living now, i dont need more accompanion, maybe one or two more will be fine. I can get as much information as i want now, i dont need anyone with "that" ability to be with me at all. Happiness is just all i want.

There's to many insight in my post, i just want to say whatever i want to say. I didn't want to create any topic for those ladies to talk about after their main course. If you know what i mean, thank you. If not, just forget about it. Bye